Why it’s okay to not be okay

It’s been awhile since I’ve shared my brain with you. So what better time but the present. As January strolls on by, I can’t help but to have our miscarriage on my mind. Constantly.  All the families I saw pregnant at the time I was had their babies. As our due date approaches fast I’m trying to remind myself that everything happens for a reason and to keep on counting the blessings I have right in front of me.

In remembrance of our angel’s who were to good for earth. This memorial speaks for itself. I will never forget and will always have a special piece in my heart for them.

Just recently; I’ve had a friend write a really nice message on one of my Facebook post of Daniel’s progress in an activity he was doing. She mentioned how she appreciated that I was open with our struggles along with the good. I was so happy inside to hear that someone out there following our little life journey pointed out that I’m don’t just share the good. I share it all.

I’ve always lived by the saying, “Stay true to yourself and you’ll live a happier, healthier life.” Since being vulnerable and open with Daniel’s diagnosis, it has not only helped me better accept it; but it’s helped me become stronger emotionally and physically with him. I am able to put aside the “what if’s”, the “why’s” and concentrate on what he really needs in this moment. Being a “Stay at home mom” if you might say is by far from easy; especially with a child that has special needs.

It is important for you to know that no one’s life is perfect no matter what they portray their life to be in real life or more importantly, social media. You may find yourselves getting sad, depressed, or jealous of someone for what they “only” share about their life to be like on Facebook/Instagram. I’m here to tell you to not take it seriously.

Quite frankly we all have flaws, we all have things we can improve about ourselves, our careers, our relationships, and our lives as a whole. If there is one thing I’ve learned about myself is that I always have room to improve as me, as a partner, and as a mother. I have bad days. I have good days. They make me the person I am. Truthful, passionate, and forgiving.

To summarize my thoughts; it’s okay to not be okay. It’s actually healthy to cry did you ever think about that? This will make you laugh; I am an every night watcher of “World news with David Muir.” I don’t like to watch the news but when I do it’s world; and there is a reason. At the end of every taping, David Muir does an #AMERICASTRONG video. It’s when they highlight an ordinary American(s) for going above and beyond. It’s almost always a tear jerker moment every time for me; and I love it. If i didn’t cry yet for the day; I shed a few drops in those couple minutes and it feels great.

So I challenge YOU to share a struggle. To share something you typically wouldn’t on social media. Because being imperfect is the best way to live.